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09:25

Environment is such an interesting thing. The actual impact of it felt in the body. The place I, the other one, find myself currently living in, is in theory a correct environment for me. I moved to this place by invitation some many years ago, it was the most insane somatic experience I ever had, (I rarely have any, my spleen work in different ways) but I thought I was having a heart attack when the phone rang and said ‘we want you here’ so there is absolutely no doubt that it -at the moment- was right.

I do somehow suspect the invitation has ran out long ago. The people who invited me here have all left and moved to other places within the last couple of years. I totally understand why I had to move to this place, which lessons I had to learn, and found it rather funny when I discovered that my Uranus line on an Astro cartography cart is just 10 km away from here. I got here in the exact middle, the seven year division between my Saturn return and Uranus opposition. So I get it. And see all the lessons learned. It has been a full circle change on a plate which was meant to happen here.

Now I’m wondering how an open G who has absolutely no idea of where to move next will find that place? I have been done and ready to move on for years but have absolute no idea of where to head next. The usually reasons for moving around, like studies, I’m done with, so I’m curious how I will get out of here and to where.

and then I realised something. In theory I’m in the correct environment. There are borders and edges all over. I’m like a tourist always in transition, never really belonging, being or becoming one of ‘them’. I’m a passenger that will move on when time is as I have been doing my entire life. I’m in a tiny place with cultural differences, very well known and familiar as I was raised in something very similar but in a different country. The borders are clear, the feeling of alienation always follows along.

Now, In theory this place is perfect. But then I noticed my body picking up and transforming a lot when I last went to visit the one one. Her house, her home and her environment is even more correct for me. More borders, more transitions, a very safe felt place and I felt so many changes in my body from spending time there that it made me realise that only the body knows which environment is correct. Perhaps it naturally has everything to do with the people too, but it’s such an interesting observation to see how the place in theory really isn’t the proper place as only the body’s felt sense can tell.